I need a muse, to be honest. Or rather, I need to write constantly and accept that people, places and things will come and go from my life and some of the people in my life (and the places and things) will be open enough to enable me to feel something. I feel like the relationships I've had so far in Japan have all be glass-slick surface ones. I don't like to say this about others. I don't think it's intentional on their part. It's a reflection of the culture. People hide themselves here. They hide their true nature, which is for me the most essential thing. How can I make it through this life without recognizing something deep within another person. I'm not even talking about romantic love. Actually, far from it. I'm just talking about some sort of true connection. Maybe it's a dead end though. Can there really be true connections? Is there really a private, interior space still in this world for us to explore? Or have we publicized everything, every little mystery that was there to be discovered?
Maybe the Japanese have it right.
Maybe, in order to exist in this world in this era, you've got to hide your