So, I'm back to the grind, back in the saddle (again), back into the groove, you know... And while I am happy to be back in Japan, I am feeling that uneasiness, that particular itch that I have felt before when I know it might be time for me to head to a new adventure (I've got my sights set already, I just need some time to work out the details). It isn't very noticeable except when I am dealing with all of the BS at my work, and while every job has a certain amount of BS, I guess I feel like time is ticking and I don't have time to waste on this particular BS.
My trip home was really worthwhile. I wish I had returned home last summer as I really needed a vacation a year ago. It's important to refresh and recharge from cultural fatigue. It does wear you down. I've been trying to re-acclimate myself to Japan. I love Japan, but I feel like I constantly have mini-struggles throughout the day. I figure it has to do with my language inabilities, but it could also just be a cultural divide (or both). I do miss my friends and family back home, but I don't have a desperate need to return to the USA. When I eventually do, I know it will be time to return home.
I still feel like I need to be in Japan, though I don't think this means staying in Okinawa. The biggest struggle of moving is meeting new people and starting over from scratch. It has taken me a while to build up friendships with my Japanese colleagues and friends. That being said, I will have to do it again at some point as I am not planning to settle down in Okinawa. How do I gracefully maneuver from this particular Okinawan life to another one I haven't yet settled on? I suspect some mini-vacations are in order.
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